Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Strange Headspace

Yes, I've been single for about a year and half now. Maybe that's why I need to purge the filth that is my mind? Perhaps I just need a good old fashioned romp in the hay, sans kink? Yeah, boring, although even vanilla would add some flavor to my current lack of....
So I found myself up late last night reading on a topic that is a favorite of mine. (Granted, I've never been married but have had some long term relationships.)

"Cuckolding and Hot wives".

Perhaps it's a case of craving that which we can't immediately have?

Cuckolding is interesting to me but I don't know that I could maintain that level of submission for any length of time. For those not familiar with the term it is a femme dom scenario where the female dominant humiliates her male counterpart by forcing him to watch her have sex with other men (referred to as "bulls"). The submissive male is often scolded during the scenario and is asked to partake of demeaning tasks such as fetching water or a towel for his master or her Bull. Or perhaps he has to clean the kitchen floor while he listens to his wife and another man in the other room. It's a scenario that does appeal to me once in a while but there are men and couples who make this an actual lifestyle. The male sub is not allowed to have other partners. I'm just not cut from the cloth of monogamy. (Maybe that's why I'm still single?) That would wear on me and the relationship after a while, yet I am fascinated by those who make this work. If you're out there, would love to hear from you!

Now the lighter side of this, often referred to as a "hot wife" has always been a favorite fetish of mine. I love watching my significant other with other men. Now some of you may be thinking - yeah, you're Bi, duh. But no, it goes deeper than my attraction to men. It's about relinquishing control and the actual act of watching my S.O. being shared and pleasured by someone other than me. Has anyone else shared my flavor for this? Would love to hear real world experiences and the mental pictures behind it.

(Sidebar: I've never been in a relationship with a man. I'm open to it...I've just not come across one where this was a possibility. I've always craved a female partner, with an attraction to men as purely sexual.)


  1. Great Blog! I particularly loved the last post about cuckolding. I´d love to partake in this but without the humiliation part. I´d really enjoy having sex with another man whilst mine is watching, maybe even telling the guy I´m fucking what to do...but sadly that will never happen. G (my hubby) hast told me thr thought of sharing me would be too much for him, I agree though because I would´nt want to share hime either...
    Why would you say youre single? Apart from being a self confessed slag?? And when was the last time you got laid?

  2. Thanks for the comment! Was in a long term relationship up until a year and a half ago...and it's been about 6 months. Sorry to hear your dilema. Perhaps you should indulge in your fantasy in written form and have it posted here. =)